Writer, Reader and Starbucks drinker! Attending college to be a writer/English major. Love realistic fiction and romance novels. Theater actress and makeup artist. Gilmore Girls and Dance Moms fan. Team Peeta/Jacob/Gryffindor!
Recently, me and my best friend decided to cyber stalk our exs online (who hasn’t?). Most of my exs I cannot stand and choose to ignore most of the time, except one. We are NOT friends anymore nor have we talked to each other in months but once in a great while he crosses my mind. Mostly funny stuff I remember or when I need a good bitch rant and need someone to rant about. While thinking about him the other day though I had to thank him for two things.
The first is my Hollister sweater addiction. I cannot decide if this is a good or bad addiction yet. Although it is expensive, each sweatshirt costing between $30-$50, they are so comfortable. When we broke up I obviously had to give him back all his sweaters and I was really depressed (About losing the sweaters, not him!). So I went out and bought my own. I now have about six Hollister sweaters and wear them constantly.Before him I used to hate Hollister and what they stood for. The brand was what the popular kids at my high school wore who were thin, pretty, and thought they were better then everyone else. After he dragged me in there enough times though the store began to grow on me and now I shop there every once in a while.
Secondly, this may sound strange but I believe God does everything for a reason. He sends you people to teach you lessons and help you grow as a person. If I wrote down everything I wanted in a guy my ex would have fit the bill perfectly! However, after dating him for awhile it got a little boring and not everyone is perfect. He helped me come to a conclusion that I wanted imperfect more then perfect. That brings me to my recent boyfriend. We dated before I dated my ex and got back together about a year ago. He’s the complete opposite and I love it!!! I like his imperfections and he loves mine. Every day is something new and he helped me get through a tough time. He helped me through a creative block and to find my voice/myself again. I appreciate him so much more because of my ex, my ex made me realize how good I had had it before him.
All of the other night I spent hunched over a computer screen apartment hunting online for an apartment near my new school. It was a long process and took hours. We won’t be able to go look at apartments in person until the middle April so me and my boyfriend have settled for this method. We searched many sites and came up with 3 options in our price range. I am still unsure though because although their nice enough, the computer/internet is a fabricated place.
We looked up apartments in the area we live in now, and got this one apartment complex known to all as The Arbors. It’s basically an apartment complex, one of the cheapest in town where all the college students/stay at home non college students end up. It’s known for being loud and having alot of drama. The website made it look amazing and for a quick minute I actually WANTED to live there but then reality kicked in. I knew the website was basically lying to me and so I am now anxious to go check the apartments out in person before we make our decision.
Also the daunting task of packing lays ahead. I have started sorting through all my belongings and deciding what needs to go with us and what needs to be left behind. It’s a long process and although I’ve made headway I still have a million miles to go. I am trying to remember how I accumulated all this stuff over the years but it’s pointless, i am a shopaholic at times and a hoarder at others. I have moved twice in my life, one of which I cannot remember but the second time I do and every time I think about it, it sends shivers down my spine. My boyfriend who moved alot in his childhood is trying to be supportive and calm me down but it’s not working. There’s just so much to do and with no place to live yet it’s adding to the pressure at times.